I had a great day last monday... I found out I got a job! But that job isn't going to start for another month. Its still good news.
Then life was pretty boring for the next few days.
Bring it to a week later...
I've been trying to sell my car for the last month with no success. David and I can't afford 2 cars and he doesn't fit in mine so the choice was simple. The car has been running really well while no one has been interested.
Then today someone came to check it out. It decided to be funny and make noises and smells that I had never heard or seen before. I walked into my apartment, dropped the price by $500 online and now i'm waiting. I just want this car to be gone! It has given me so much grief and its starting to overshadow the lovely fact that in a few weeks I get to have a job.
Can life ever be smooth?
I'm learning so much patience but I'd like for this trial to just be gone. I've dealt with it for a month already. Come on!
I wish I could just fast forward to 2 years from now. Hopefully by then the following will happen:
David graduates and gets drafted
We have a baby
Current car is gone and we have more of a "mommy" car
The job worked out and gave us a saving to get by
David and I (and baby) are all healthy
What we have now:
David is gone all day at basketball/school
I am stuck at home stressing over a car and waiting for work to start
Birth control makes you gain weight
We are living off of a small savings
I don't have health insurance
We can't get student grants
What is good that we have now:
We have a roof and a comfortable apartment
We have supportive family and friends
We are healthy
We have food
We have each other
We have the Lord
It's hard to not let the bad overshadow the good. I'm struggling with that right now.
P.s. if you want to be generous and buy my car or refer it to someone who wants a car that will get them around just fine. Here are the links to the ads on ksl and craigslist:
ksl
craigslist
Anyone have a life remote with a fast forward button?
3 comments:
((Hugs)) I sometimes wish that I could fast forward too. To a time when Adam was done with school and he has a job that provides health insurance, etc. But I have learned over the years it is better to enjoy the present then to dwell on what could be. But that sure is hard to do sometimes! Just remember things will change and then you will have a whole new set of challenges ;).
Sometimes I look back and think, OH! Remember when Lincoln was in school and we had holidays and I could go to the store by myself and we could go out together without kids. I miss that.
One day you will miss this, I promise. Just enjoy the moment, even with the hard stuff. There will always be hard stuff.
Probably not what you wanted to hear, but I love you, you are amazing, and hang in there.
PS Birth Control is lousy. If it is really bothering you/making your moods wacky, PLEASE call your doctor and get a different brand. I wish I had done that sooner when I was first married.
I totally feel you. Hopefully the car will sell soon. At least you get to live with your hubs... My first year living all week without Brian was torture. Also, I have an insurance license so I can hook you up with health insurance the next time you come to Cali. You are going to need that once the pregnancy/baby thing comes around. Good luck with everything! Just appreciate the good things going on.
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