Thursday, January 6, 2011

If only...

Isn't this a pretty picture?

I wish I could go back to this day.  Where everything seemed like roses and sunsets.  When we were both healthy, we knew what our goals and our future was going to be, we had things "figured out".

Fast forward to today... 8 months later.  I'm not healthy... kind of (I have been normal for 3 weeks so far).  David and I have a large trial on our hands right now.  This is a huge growing time for us and I'm so scared.  We both seem to be in a bit of denial.  I'm trying to be strong for our family but I can't do it alone and with David being gone so often I find myself feeling like I'm bearing the burden by myself.  This is a huge turning point for us.  We have the potential to do a lot of good but it seems like things just won't go the right way for us.  Just cant catch a break!

I'll keep trying but I'm not sure how much longer I can be the strong one

5 comments:

Kat said...

Britta!!!! I am so sorry you are struggling right now! It breaks my heart. Girl, we need to chat. I've had my fair share of trials in my marriage and we always make it through somehow. Let's get together sometime soon, seriously. I love you girl. I really do.

Allana said...

Britta you don't have to bear these burdens alone! You have TONS of friends and family who love you and will help you anyway they can, even if it's just to listen. I'm here for you if you need.

Ruth said...

Trials are part of life. Yes, you have some major decisions to make, and it is tough. You know that we are here for you every step of the way. Communication is key!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Josh and Megan said...

Are you okay??? Email me!!! I really want to know if you are okay!
I LOVE YOU CUZ

Amy said...

Brian and I lived apart all week long the first 9 months of marriage... And like you, not exactly by any choice of our own. It will get easier in time and will help you to become more independent. I promise. This too shall pass. And you will appreciate the days when he's around EVEN more. Plus, it makes the times you do see each other in between the breaks like second honeymoons :)